i fucking give up

I am done with this fucking country. I am tired of this inaction and inability to get anything done.

1. DADT - really? you can't repeal this fucking nonsense? how hard is it?

2. Healthcare - taking out the one that can make a difference in the debate allows the GOP to win. how fucking hard is it for the DFL to get into one room and work shit out before the fucking congress gets it. Since they are removing the public option there is no change. We are all still fucked. The public option would have helped my sister when my parents cannot cover her. So no change. Thanks Reagen, I mean Obama.

3. Economy - just collapse already. Obviously nothing is going to change. Either get better or get worse. Pick something already.

4. Enviroment - No one wants to change or even cares. Fuck you. Fuck all of you. We need a straight carbon tax and fuel standards that are VERY STRICT. 32 MPG should not be acceptable at all. We should require 50 MPG minimum and have a 30% tax on all cars noget getting at least 40 MPG. We need to require the removal all plastic bags and fresh paper bags. We need radical change not in 5 years but no later than 2011. We need it now or we are fucked.

5. Obama - Was a lie. Clinton would not have been better and McCain worse but we are being lied to. One and done president. We'll get another GOP in 2012, if we're lucky it will be Palin only to make everything worse.

I am going to learn French and hope to someday leave this fucking disaster and get out of here.

Where I was..

I am really not sure how to do this. Where to start but here I go.

Today when Barack Hussein Obama was sworn into office as #44 I was at my desk. I streamed the event on my computer through msnbc.com and I was red-lining drawings (writing changes on the sheets in red pen, think correcting). The project is a control building for a water treatment plant. I did everything in my power to hold in emotions of excitement and tears of joy. I asked on twitter "Where Am i?" because I couldn't believe what was happening.

The things that moved me the most were other people responding to it. Men who served in segregated troops in WWII and those who fought civli rights. Seeing them collapse in tears or unable to express things made me joyful for them. For me I grew seeing race as a difference but also wishing I knew more about african americans. There were very few in Northern Minnesota but New Orleans put me in contact with that history. I learned more about my country through seeing the opposite from which I grew up.

Now I will remember this day forever but its impact is lesser for me. I think my growing up with media feeding me the idea of equality helped. MTV, The Cosby Show, and professional sports helped me see the world. College helped me understand more. I know not the feeling of racism but the fight for equality is far from over.

The big thing for today is that not only do we have a leader how is smart, articulate (can pronounce nuclear), and who is motivated to put his nose to the grindstone. Mr. President I am here to further your vision and our country. I cannot really express the joy and hope I feel but I try. I write this with joy in my heart and bounce in my step. I am scared at how far this economy is going to fall and whatever fallout seems to be on the horizon.

Thank you America.
Thank you Mr. President.